People influenced by the environment

 The world is extremely small, you even can’t imagine how small it is. I am watching the sky and at the same time some liquid are squashing out of my eyes. 

   Long times ago, actually it was in the primary school, Lola and I met each other in the third year of my primary school graduation ceremony. She was a girl who had long black hair, big brown eyes and a small pink lip. She was the most beautiful girl that I met in the primary school and when she said “hi” to me, I shook her hands deeply and then we became best friends which talked everything with each other everyday. “ Hey, let’s play hide and seek!” I said it with excitement. “ Okay! I will play, but you need to be the one who catch!” She seems to be elated too. “ Catch me, catch me! come on, you can do it!” We rushed around the school and even forgot what game we were playing. But there was a universal truth that happy times always past so quickly that we were going to graduate from our primary school just like other students did and we were promising to each other that we will go to the same middle school in Beijing. 

  We kept our promises and we trusted each other so much. Maybe it’s because we trusted each other so much or maybe it’s our destiny that we went to the same middle school and that middle school was the best in Beijing. Middle school life was different from primary school life. All the students worked very hard in here and there were many pressure between students to students. Lola and I were in the same school but we separated in different classes. We shared our secrets just like when we were in the primary school. The only differences was that the only time that we met was in the noon when everybody eating their lunch. “ So how’s your class?” Lola smiled at me and try to got more information about me. “ quite well, but it’s difficult.” “ You can handle it! Celia is always my hero.” She tried to encourage me with another kinds of confidence smile. I smiled too, and I made a decision that I need to work hard on every subjects. The distance between us were very horrible. Time past quickly as in the primary school. She got new friends in her class and because of her beauty that she was famous in the school now. At the morning when we met, she said hi to me without looking into my eyes but looking through me, she saw her boyfriend waiting outside the gate of the school. “ Honey, let’s go to school together from today okay?” She used a voice which made me felt dizzy. And that was the time she changed but not that much which I still could restrain our relationship.

  We graduated from the middle school, this time without promises and she went to Hu Bei for her high school study. I was still in Beijing and I planned to go abroad for studying outside China. We didn’t contact much with each other in the high school and I didn’t know what she was doing right now. Sometimes I missed her and I waited for the phones to ring but unfortunately the ring had never come. One day I was shopping in downtown, a girl crushed into my face. I was hurt by this crush and what I unhappy about was that girl didn’t say sorry to me. “ Hey, you!...”I was going to shout at her but I stucked my words in the throat and I even couldn’t believe my eyes. A girl with bright orange color hair, a disgusting make up eyes and a ugly lips with red lipstick on it and what I surprised about was she looked so similar to Lola. “ Lola?” I was asking in a questioning voice. “ Celia! God, I missed you!” She talked with me and I can smelled that she already finished at least one cigarette. “ Where are you up to?” I ignored her missing. “ I need to meet my new boyfriend and we will go to the dance club tonight.” “ But, tomorrow is Monday. Don’t you need to go to school?” “ School? that dirty place? no, I won’t go and sorry forget to tell you that I quit from my studying. The teachers kicked me out only because I kissed my boyfriend in the school. Just...don’t mention schools okay? I hated it. Also now I have a job in the dance club. I earn money now. Celia, My dear, just give me a hug okay?” She was trying to hug me but I pushed her away. The disgusting feeling made me want to throw out in the street I  waved to her but didn’t say goodbye. I thought that maybe she stand there for a little while and she was like me which turned around and walked to the opposite side of the road and finished our 6 years relationship. 

        I didn’t mention it will came that fast and I didn’t mention that she became almost a prostitue in those times. Maybe it’s destiny let us to met each other again but this time was me which grieved a lot. The world is so small, I wiping my tears out of my face and stop to watching the sky. I wanted to have our childhood back which that she can change back to the girl which feel free about world and even I can see those brown eyes and pink lips. " It won't happened" I said it to myself try to let me feel relax again and the word “hide and seek” echo in my ears.